Monday, May 10, 2010

mother's day 2010.

this weekend was wonderful.
jason spoiled me the entire weekend.
didn't push me to get ready.
didn't push me to get out of bed.
didn't bug me to do ANYTHING at all,
although i reminded him once that it WAS mother's day on sunday, but that was only to get out of an awful poopy diaper.... (thank you, love)
he cleaned the kitchen spotless,
and did it in a wonderful mood....
normally he cleans it and grumbles while in work mode....
doesn't talk a whole lot and "just wants to get it done."
nope, not this weekend.
he pitched in with the laundry and even helped me bake the banana bread for everyone.

sunday morning, he took the kids to go get coffee for mama.
he comes home with a maple bar (donut) and with red icing on top they wrote out, "we love you."

they picked 3 roses from our yard (i secretly love roses now because of our yard)....

taylor had made me a card that she so anxiously presented me with....
informing the world of these following facts (in her mind).... or are they really facts? i had to rethink these out and take a look at myself.

Mom's bedtime: (taylor writes) "9:00 pm" this is true, most of the time. sometimes it's much earlier (or later, if Lewie won't sleep)
Mom's favorite time to get up: "9:00 am" ummmm seriously??? when's the last time i've slept in until 9 am? NOT SINCE LEWIE WAS BORN!!!!!! NUTS! i laughed out loud and then proceeded to read....

mom's favorite TV show: "16 and pregnant" OH NO!!!! do you REALLY think that's my favorite TV show? what about "extreme makeover: home edition" or "grey's anatomy" or "a baby story" ?? what about THOSE shows that i love??? i guess it's because i don't watch TV much at alllll lately and the few times i've turned it on at night, my "shows" haven't been on, and so i've watched 16 and pregnant.... and maybe it's because i can totally relate to them and having a child at such a young age... and not even knowing where you are with your life when you have this child.... it's such a scary thing, but look where we are now?? it's amazing!!!! =)

oh my sweet Taylor, you always open my eyes to something new everyday.... you always have me look at myself and how i can improve myself, because i truly want nothing but the best for you....

tonight, we sat on the couch (Jason, Taylor and I) talking about another brother or sister. Jason and Taylor want another one.... i am not entirely convinced.... we sat and talked about names.... are they really going to convince me to have another child someday??? i can't even imagine having another child and going through anything close to what i went through with Lewie.... but i look at our crazy little household and really kind of love what we have.... such an incredible love for each other.... i guess i just get scared i'd get lost in the midst of the children and the chaos.... i love my husband and taylor and lewie, and i don't want to put more between jason and i than what's already there.... i love being able to spend time, individually, as well as a whole family.... but the more people there are, the less individual time there is for sure....

after the kids went to bed, jason and i sat on the couch and watched TV and we talked.... and he brought up night number 2 when we were texting. he said, "i remember you telling me that you weren't looking for a daddy for taylor.... i remember where i was.... i was at Glory Days.... and i remember what seat i was sitting in.... 3rd from the left.... i didn't believe you, but all i wanted to do was to take of you and T."

then he looked over at me and smiled, and we laughed and i snuggled up on him and wrapped my arm around his waist and just loved on him until we were both ready for bed.... his scent is one that is so reassuring.... his soft breaths when he breathes, they tickle my nose.... such a wonderful tickle and scent that i very secretly try to breathe in.... i close my eyes in hopes of remembering his scent.... forever....

i love you Jason....

Thursday, May 6, 2010


i'm not gonna lie and say everything is always peachy.
daddy worked late tonight.
he's the only one who stayed late with the guys who are pouring the deck to the 2nd floor.
this doesn't happen too often, but when it does, i just wish he was home with us.... we had fun tonight. taylor, lewie and i.... we made videos on youtube together. one called MONSTERS it was of taylor and mommy being monsters, and lewie started to catch on and try to be a monster too! =) i had a lot of fun making the videos and taking pictures with the kiddos.
kiddos are now asleep, and i'm still waiting for daddy to come home. it's 915 pm, and i'm soooo sleepy.... but i miss daddy so much.... i'll wait just a little while longer....

good night my sleeping angels.

a man of his word.

you know, i think of how much i love jason daily....
i think of the many reasons i love jason, daily....
his honesty.
he's a man of his word.
more than just appreciating that, and him,
i RESPECT that....
i respect my husband, on a level that i've never ever EVER respected a boy or man before.
i respect him.
i can only hope that i show him that enough....

Saturday, May 1, 2010

coffee on the weekends.

like clockwork,
every single weekend,
Jason gets up out of bed,
brushes his teeth,
puts on his beanie,
and slips on his sneakers,
and goes to get us coffee.
he takes Lewie with him,
and Taylor (if she wants to go),
and gets his venti coffee from starbucks
and my grande peppermint white mocha frap with whipped cream.
lewie gives kisses for whipped cream, you know....

for some reason, the coffee just tastes better on the weekend.
all week long, i look forward to the weekend,
and sipping coffee at home with my loves,
all 3 of them.